I'm so fanny.

  • Gennaro: well another cheesy line coming
  • Gennaro: you have like the italian, ted n all your online friends
  • Gennaro: xD
  • Nana: whenever you say italian i think of pasta and pizza
  • Nana: <.<
  • Gennaro: lol well i have to call myself something xD
  • Nana: lol
  • Nana: i think the word is "me"
  • Gennaro: <.<

Lately I’ve been going back to the time where I’d always feel sad and empty. Every time I try to fall asleep, sad thoughts always overwhelm me and I end up crying myself to sleep. I thought I could become a happier person in Arizona because of all the new changes, but it’s hard. Even with the friends I made at school, I feel so alone. It’s hard to really connect with anyone because I am so socially awkward. Sometimes I just wish all the friends I knew online were people I knew in real life too. Maybe then I wouldn’t feel so alone.

All I wish is to just have at least one best friend in life that I can physically see and be with everyday. Someone I can trust everything with. Someone that loves to be around my presence. Someone that makes me feel like I’m not sitting alone on the sidelines. Someone that chooses me over everyone else. Someone that makes an effort to talk to me, because I’m tired of trying my best and always being the third wheel.

I hate being so alone. 


SO I HAVEN’T BEEN ON TUMBLR IN FOREVER! It’s coz I got kinda really lazy and such and such, but I’m back for a little while.

It’s only a little while because in 2 weeks I’m going to Korea for a month. I CAN’T WAIT! I thought I wasn’t going this year, but plans changed and I’m so so so excited! ♥

Oh and in another note, I have not forgotten about our pen pal exchange, s-kei! I wanted to send my letter with a gift for you, which I will be shopping for in Korea! Huhuhu ~